There is no need to define it. The deeper asking is to witness and be with it as part of the whole.
Can we breathe with it, drawing it closer into us as we subtly dissolve all the mental layers.
What if we stop trying to make it something, remove it, dissect it, label it as bad or not okay but learn to:
Be with Observe Allow Witness It all While simultaneously breathing.
Breathing gently with what is arising.
How would our relationship to our tension change if we created safety in our own experience to be with whatever arises?
Could this be a macrocosm to earlier childhood patterns of when we were told what we were thinking, what was good/bad, mimicking the same thoughts within our own microcosm?
Self exploration is the key. Only you know.